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I come to know a girl when i was 19 years old, dated her and soon we are together. Was not serious about the relationship @ all , all i thought was to bonk her and throw her away after few months or until i can find a better girl.

soon my uncle asked me to work part time for him i can earn about 10k-15k i can even buy a car when i was 19. I felt great and thought that i am like the king of the world.

i realize she not the type of materialistic girl and i really hope to settle down with her. I spend a lot of money on her willingly as i was also enjoying the good food , overseas trip etc. I treat her really well, give in to her for everything and we didn't have any major quarrel over the years.


I got kick out of school eventually too as i was collecting soccer and got caught, I did not her tell about anything as i do not want her to know that i do cant earn as much as before. I always give her white lie when she talk to me about this.

I borrow a lot of money from her and my friends to pay debts, she stay with me throughout for this 5 years which i fail to tell her things truthfully, but i really love her, she had already break off with me, that's when i know that she was aware that i got kick out of school borrow money from my friends and i lied to her a lot, she was always giving me chances by not telling me off things, she knew that i am the type of guy whom really ai mian zi so she didn't tell me off,when she knew i was lying to her. i was foolish to keep on telling her lies over and over again to cover up for the previous lie.

now that i broke off with her, i really changed a lot, been studying part time while having a stable job.

called her a few times but from her tone she has already given up on me and i think shes v happy to be free now.

anything i can do ? to move her heart ? shes a very 'soft' type of person whom will give in easily. we broke off for about 8months already, initially i thought i wont go back to talk to her, as i don't want to ruin her life to stay together with me. But now i am confident that i will be able to provide her with a happy and sweet life.

what can i do?