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Originally Posted by flowbow
I'm not extremely busy la, just that work tires me out so I don't have much energy to go out after a long day at work. It's just me I think.
Personally I feel there's nothing wrong with paying for companionship. Don't think too deeply into it. In this day and age, such things are common and has nothing to do with one's confidence level. Unless, of course, you choose to think that way. These days, money talks. I am not shy to admit that I do make use of money sometimes to buy companionship on days I feel lonely and empty. It is not that I lack companionship because as a girl, I think it shouldn't be too difficult to find a companion... But I don't want companionship from any Tom, Dick or Harry... More so if that person is not someone I am interested in.
Sometimes I "buy" companionship from people whose company I would love to have (note: not necessarily sex) and it is also fulfilling, to a certain extent. Though my emotions still get in the way at times and I end up developing feelings, for the most part, it's been quite enjoyable for me. At least there is no commitment and I'm happy being able to spend time with someone whose company I enjoy. I still go home to my own bed, contented, and wake up the next day to face a long work day ahead... Until I feel lonely again. Don't stereotype me, it's not such a bad thing actually 
P.S: I am not implying that I'm some high flyer or that I'm filthy rich, but I think I will give credit to those who deserve it, be it monetary or not. And no, I am not interested in adopting any SBF guys as a sugar baby... Hahahaha let's just say this forum is just a place for me to while some time away when I am bored at work or at home.  |
Nope, I do not think that there is anything wrong with paying, in fact, that was what I told my wife. If I am used to paying someone to spend time with me, I would get into the habit of getting what I want that way, so wouldn't it be better?
It's just that I've found that I was seriously flawed psychologically. I have bottled my feelings (emotionally and sexually) too long that there is a real danger of me being totally unprepared when that someone PERFECT comes along.
When it comes to that, paying might help increase my experience, I guess, but I also must build confidence when it comes to attracting someone. To let myself know that the first and only time wasn't a fluke, and that choosing to love only one as my lifelong partner was MY choice.
You know? I have never been able to tell someone not a member of my family that she was pretty, or sexy without choking on my words? I am now like, fuck that. I'm done with being so ball-less. I can be a nice guy, but still be able to openly say that I am attracted to you, I like to spend time with you, and not have to feel bad about it!